drivel drivel drivel

I don't have anything too interesting on my mind at the moment, but I'm just content with this day, this moment, this stage in my life. And that is rare.

I really enjoyed opening this morning. Despite the death fog on my way to work (Left at 4:20 to be safe, mind you) and the early morning stress due to lots of new stuff @ work, I had a good time. I really love our new soy. The Salted Caramel Hot Chocolate is FABULOUS. Pumpkin cream cheese muffins & scones means FALL. I escaped some goss. (hallelujah) and the mindlessness of Mr. S (double hallelujah). I just left work happy & at peace. I even open tomorrow & I'm excited about it. This is weird. Just last night I was throwing a fit because I had to get up at 3:40. I came home & took Daisy for a walk and it SMELLED like FALL. Anyway, I'm hanging out with my husband as he works and my dog as she naps and licks her feet... will eventually venture out to Avon (this is always exciting for someone who is less than wealthy... by America standards) with my man, do some grocery shopping. I started to re-watch Lost & am going to finish it so I can watch it once it's back on TV. I don't know... this is drivel & I know it but it's happy drivel & I like where happy drivel comes from...

the great philospher, Ben Gibbard.

I wish we could open our eyes
To see in all directions at the same time
Oh what a beautiful view
If you were never aware of what was around you
And it is true what you said
That I live like a hermit in my own head
But when the sun shines again
I'll pull the curtains and blinds to let the light in.

Sorrow drips into your heart
through a pinhole
Just like a faucet that leaks
and there is comfort in the sound
But while you debate half empty or half full
It slowly rises
your love is gonna drown

Ode to my Best Friend.

Until October the 6th, my husband & I will be dog-sitting the lovely Daisy. It's been a fun adventure & as I watch Tim fall in love with my dog, I hope I'll one day convince him we need a little mutt for ourselves =)


And, I have saved the best for last.

the heart.

"At the heart of Christianity is a God who died for his enemies, praying for their forgiveness."


This came from Tim's sermon this morning & is either loosely quoting Tim Keller's book, The Reason for God or quoting it exactly.

LL

Lindsay Lohan called Sarah Palin "media obsessed" in her myspace "celebrity blog" the other day.

I find this quite hilarious.

I don't think that Lindsay Lohan has the right to call anyone but herself "media obsessed."

Thanks and have a lovely day!!  =)

broken.

So apparently, I really like blogging!  I think it's because this blog serves more like a journal... something I can look back on & watch how I have grown & where life has changed.  Now that is exciting.   So what I'm about to say next, I hope does not sound bad....

I've been doing some thinking lately.  Honestly, I've been sort of searching for and trying to develop relationships that just fit.  That may not make sense to you, but I come packaged with all sorts of weird social issues.  I love people, don't get me wrong.... 

I am rarely just comfortable in the moment.  I do feel rather at ease with my husband.  That is a bond I never understood until the day that I got married.  There is something very special that develops.  Two bodies, hearts, and minds come together to become one.  'Nuff said.  When I'm with my kids at Oasis, I feel relaxed and at ease.  I feel they are part of my purpose at this point in my life.  Maybe that is the reason for the ease.  Then I have many constants in my life.  My family, Tiffany, the Illgs, my in-laws, Heather, etc.... Who I love & have blessed me with so much love, grace, and joy..... but because I am an overanalyzer, at times I feel strange... but that's just me being awkward =)  No big deal.  

There are two places in which I've recently felt really lost: at work and at church.   At work, I'm the new kid so I guess it's understandable.  At church,  I'm the only one my age and at my specific stage in life.  So I guess I have a hard time relating.... and I'm so hypersensitive that I feel most of the time that people (including many of the constants in my life) don't want to be around me or find me that interesting.  And that is okay, I guess.  I have tried to tell myself that it really doesn't matter.  I don't have to be anything special to anyone else because God is working in my life & loves me like nobody else could.  

So I am reading through Searching for God Knows What by Donald Miller.  (I love him.)  He sort of worked through an idea using the story of the Fall & Adam & Eve being naked.  I'll try to quote some parts of what he wrote.  

"The idea of clothes had never crossed their minds.  And I know you think I am being immature by bringing this up, but the thing is, Moses repeated this idea five times....... If you ask me, the most obvious thing that happened after the Fall was that people started wearing all kinds of clothes.......Here is what I think Moses was saying: Man is wired so he gets his glory (this security, his understanding of value, his feeling of purpose, his feeling of rightness with his maker, his security for eternity) from God, and this relationship is so strong, and God's love is so pure, that Adam and Eve felt no insecurity at all, so much so that they walked around naked and didn't even realize they were naked.  But when that relationship was broken, they knew it instantly.

If man was wired so that something outside himself told him who he was, and if God's presence was giving him a feeling of fulfillment, then when that relationship was broken, man would be pining for other people to tell him that he was good, right, okay with the world, and eternally secure.  As I wrote earlier, we all compare ourselves to others, and none of our emotions- like jealousy and envy and lust- could exist unless man was wired so that somebody else told him who he was, and that somebody else was gone."

Hello.  

2010.

So I found out that Shaq will be retiring in 2010 today.

I'm so glad that he decided to bring his lazy buffoon butt to Phoenix on the tail end of Steve Nash's career in Phoenix.

After Stevie leaves, I'm done w/the NBA.

BOO.

what a bum.