trying to figure it out

really struggling here.

work is taking it all out of me.

at this point i look forward to leaving everything behind.

all because of that.

how do you get to a place where it doesn't ruin you?

how are you bigger than the beast?

where do you find the lacking humility

you know should be there?

it's a struggle

because i should love my job.

i do.

i just don't love this

what it's doing to me.

feeling that prayer helps for a sec.

and then the anxiety slithers back in

for another round.

you think i'd learned from practice.

but i'm new.