dear me (the next time you are down):

so i am feeling super positive tonight and wanted to share a few things that are making me smile today

tim decided to stay home this weekend, which honestly, was a huge blessing for me. even though i am learning to find serenity in the extra space this schedule of ours still takes a lot of getting used to. even if he is studying tonight, we get to eat dinner together and that is a blessing.

i am cooking dinner for the first time in, like, forever. i've been working mostly nights and tim's out schooling during the day. we sometimes collide for a few when i see him at starbucks or in passing as i'm on my way to work, but no dinners as of late. tonight it's simple: bbq chicken, baked potatoes, & broccoli. feels good to cook!

i did dishes. i haven't done dishes at all this week. feeling accomplished and clean!

tim and i will also be cleaning up our apartment tonight and doing a little reorganizing.

i'm going to church tomorrow. if i were here alone i am not sure that i would be going :( i know it's lame and i will get better about this. but i'm just so happy to visit a church with my husband.

i feel more and more motivation creeping in. i feel my lethargic fog may be lifting.

as i left work tonight, bells were ringing. i am not sure where they came from but as the sun was setting, it all painted me a beautiful picture.

i'm feeling less of the people-pleasing pressure. i felt it so much back at the old place of work. i miss everybody so much and i'm not sure why i was so hard on myself but here i have let go. i want to do more heavenly work.

love coming home to my "boys." when i get off the phone with tim to let him know i'm on my way home i say, "see you guys in a bit." and i love that.

we gain an hour tonight. it will get dark sooner and i will become more a creature of the night with the closes and 4pm darkness but tonight we get an extra hour.

i rediscovered my free tea friends. ie: free tazo from work as opposed to expensive teavana. don't get me wrong: i am drinking plenty of teavana (i consumed four 8 oz. cups of arcadian apple the other day...) but i feel love again for these

full leaf passion, iced

gosh, i really love tea.

okay... so another: our apartment stayed heated really well. tim and i haven't turned the heat on yet! we aren't sure why this is and it might not be a good thing come summer, but for now this is incredible, people, it's cold here!!!!

i got a bonus at work... which means i will most definitely be getting my coat!!!!!!!!!!!

next week!!!!!

next friday we are celebrating amber's birthday. i'm excited about the little gift we got her and to get what i'm sure will be some great thai with her and her husband (and nora, of course ;D). then saturday we go home to indiana. i'll go to beasley's orchard with my mom that afternoon and then my grandparents' golden anniversary will be celebrated on saturday night with the fam. should be some good times.

that's all for now

p.s. don't you still desperately love a few people that are no longer in your life? that may seem psycho but sometimes my heart aches for a few people i love but no longer have relationships with (girls, all, girls!!!) i pray for them and have peace in my heart because of that love but i really hope they are happy and healthy.

♥